No more room underneath my thumb..

I havent written an entry in like fo Eva! <--thats my gangster talk btw!

I always say I wont let it happen again,but ive decide to stop lying and just tell you all right now..Its gonna happen again. So you've been forewarned. Ha.

Lately my life has consisted of driving to work,working,going to lunch,going back to work and then driving home again. How boring. I did manage to go to the state fair last weekend though,and that was fun.

With all the excitement in my life lately ive had plenty of time to sit and think about the decisions ive been making,Mainly when it comes to the men in my life. Yes,I said men. So what?

Theres NOTHING wrong with a SINGLE girl having options,in fact its a given in,right?

Theres only like 6 at the moment. No of which are serious,& ive only been intimate with ONE and that was mooonths ago so,no harm done right? WRONG. All the harm is being done to me. I hate fow fickle I am,I decide to push one out from under my thumb..only to find a few weeks later that I want him right back under there again!

So,Now that i have 0 room left underneath my thumb...now what? I can only think of ONE that id like to eventually be serious with...but yet again that word comes into play.. EVENTUALLY. *insert annoyed face here*

Im just sick of the way things are going. I want to be WOO'd. I want someone (or even one of the ones i have now!) to come along and show me what its like to actually have that intial "dating period" before all the complicated sex and love comes into play. I wanna go on fun/romantic dates and just enjoy someones company and eventually work my way into love & sex... IMO those two little words complicate a relationship so much!

I need to be Woo'd.

SOMEONE FREAKIN WOO BE GOSH DAMNIT!

*What women really think about....*

DIRTY TALK!

So after a long talk with some of my friends yesterday I realized that women have a completely different idea of what "dirty talk" should be compared to men. We dont typically dont like a lot of "who's your daddy" talk... So I decided that this would be a good topic for my next "What women think about...." entries.

Just like my previous "What women think about..." entry, The survey questions were made by me... and answered by all REAL women. Friends of mine in fact. :) Theyre all open minded,intellegient,experienced (wink wink) and very funny women.

Enjoy!

Nicole's answers

1. Dirty Talk Vs. Silence/noises: Only when the time is right. Like when I'm about to O. Otherwise , it makes me giggle lol
2. Favorite phrase used? Thats my ass! hehe

3. Dumbest phrase youve heard? cant think of anything now lol
4. Ever laughed or wanted to laugh? YES!

5. Whats YOUR favorite thing to say? I don't like to talk lol
6. Opinions on PHONE/TEXT sex? Not really for me. Please don't ask me neither. lol I just feel like when your in person you can initiate it in other ways than asking. How do you initiate phone sex ?
7. What makes a man voice...seeeeexy IYO? Nothing. Its weird when they TRY to make it sound sexy. Like you can just tell there faking.
8. What is something youve never heard a guy say that would be HOTT to hear? IDK
9. Do you get embarassed by dirty talk? Not really
10. How dirty is TOO dirty when it comes to dirty talk (in bed,on the phone,texting): When its really vulgar. Like calling me a slut or something.

Christy's answers

1. Dirty Talk Vs. Silence/noises: it just depends on the mood i'm in.
2. Favorite phrase used? idk
3. Dumbest phrase youve heard? gosh i can't remember lol
4. Ever laughed or wanted to laugh? oh yes!
5. Whats YOUR favorite thing to say? nothing i'm normally just uhh umm.. moaning
6. Opinions on PHONE/TEXT sex? neither but I have done phone sex he was desperate.
7. What makes a man voice...seeeeexy IYO? well my man doesn't talk so i really wouldn't know
8. What is something youve never heard a guy say that would be HOTT to hear? i have no idea
9. Do you get embarassed by dirty talk? sometimes. if i am not in the mood then yes
10. How dirty is TOO dirty when it comes to dirty talk (in bed,on the phone,texting) like graphic or being rude lol

Well guys,looks like you need to be mind readers. We have to be in the "right mood" before Dirty talk is acceptable..and lay off the graphic sayings. We dont care if you like the word "pussy"...WE DONT.

Thats two so far who arent jumping on the "Dirty Talk" bandwagon.. Sorry boys!

Jessica's Answers

1. Dirty Talk Vs. Silence/noises: Hearing some dirty talk is always a bit surprising.
2. Favorite phrase used? Right there Bitch
3. Dumbest phrase youve heard? I dont remeber
4. Ever laughed or wanted to laugh? Silently yes lol
5. Whats YOUR favorite thing to say? I usually start chanting to god...I dont know why I take the lords name in vain lol
6. Opinions on PHONE/TEXT sex? Anthony wasnt kinky enough to do phone sex
7. What makes a man voice...seeeeexy IYO? when its deep...like Isac Hayes deep
8. What is something youve never heard a guy say that would be HOTT to hear?I dunno Im more of a physical person....I would rather think about what a guy would DO to me than say to me
9. Do you get embarassed by dirty talk? yea a bit, because after wards he mimics me
10. How dirty is TOO dirty when it comes to dirty talk (in bed,on the phone,texting) Telling me he wants to take out my eye balls and skull fuck me.

I'd have to agree with Jess on this one.. Skull fucking is definetly gonna be a no-go. Theres just something about my eyeball being replaced with a penis that just DOES NOT turn me on.

Meggie's Answers

1. Dirty Talk Vs. Silence/noises: I'd rather have complete silence! When a guy tries to talk dirty, I get embarrassed for him because he usually sounds like a total idiot.
2. Favorite phrase used? I'm not sure, I guess it's hot when a guy tells me how tight I am..
3. Dumbest phrase you've heard? in the middle of making out and other stuff- "You're gonna be my slut tonight, aren't you.. AREN'T YOU!!!"
4. Ever laughed or wanted to laugh? Yes. To both. lol
5. Whats YOUR favorite thing to say? I refuse to say anything because it just encourages the guy and he starts spouting off ridiculous shit.
6. Opinions on PHONE/TEXT sex? I don't do either. I prefer sexy pic messaging.
7. What makes a man voice...seeeeexy IYO? When it gets all husky
8. What is something you've never heard a guy say that would be HOTT to hear? i have no idea
9. Do you get embarrassed by dirty talk? definitely!
10. How dirty is TOO dirty when it comes to dirty talk (in bed,on the phone,texting) being dirty LITERALLY. Like saying "I'm gonna shit on your face" lol

Not again.. *tear*

Im going for my 2nd try today... (those who know me know what I mean... its far to embarassing to say here! *cries*)

Hopefully todays the day,if not. Whatever! Im sick of trying.

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I cant believe its been so long since Ive written an entry. Ive been super busy though. Im working on moving out,getting things ready with my car. (Insurance,tags,title..all that jazz) and ive had some man issues lately that surprisingly enough..I didnt feel like bloggin about for awhile.

I was mix between heart broken and srsly pissed off,not a good combination TBH!

I dont have a whole lot to write about today so im going to do another "What women think about..." entry later on.

Be looking for it!

I wonder If he knows...

I've found it to be near impossible for me to tell whether I should trust a guy or not. Friend-wise/boyfriend-wise.. Either or. I suck.

Have you ever knew something was going to happen before it actually happened?

Like,You met someone and automatically got that sick-to-your-stomach feeling that they were going to completely screw you over?

I have. Sort of. It actually happens to me alot.

I have this 6th sense about people. I'm usually a pretty good judge of Character from the get go. Except when it comes to men. I lose ALL sense of good judgement,whether they're cute or not. Doesn't matter. I'm at a loss.

I cant decide whether that is the problem at hand,or the mere fact that I trust people (of all genders might I add!) way to easily. I tend to let them in,tell them things that I normally wouldn't just up and tell people unless I felt I could trust them.

Eventually,I get comfortable with them enough,and thats when they typically go and ruin it all. Either by lying to me,or taking everything I've ever said to them and using it against me in some shape or form.

Guys are typically the culprits.

Using their charm,and sophisication so as to make me trust them. Prying thoughts out of my head,things id never think about telling them..all the while waiting for the most opportune moment to unravel it all...

Never fails to amaze me either.. I fall for it EVERYTIME. I'm beginning to wonder if this is some sort of flaw of mine,a minor little thing that seems to be completely invisible to the eye..but somehow changes every little thing about me.

Recently,I felt as if I knew him. I felt like I knew WHO he was.. He never struck me as the insensitive,arrogant type. We talked alot,about everything. He was probably the only one who has ever seen me as the awkward,artsy..talented..deep person that I am. I automatically felt like he understood me..

But..Like most men,He too was nothing like I thought he was. He changed,or just showed his true colors? I don't know. Either way,It happened again..

&& I wonder if he knows that bc of him and his "ways" I sat at this kitchen table,in a house that I dent even live in anymore... writing this shit.

I wonder If he knows.

TGIF!

Thank goodness its fucking friday!

Usually,Id say thank GOD its friday.. But I felt bad using "fuck" in the same sentence so I didnt lol!

So Today I was thinking about some of the weird little "qwerks" that I have,that pretty much make me ...ME! Theyre all pretty weird too,but everyone has those little "odd" facts about themselves that theyd never think to tell people.

*I Dont drink the last 2/3 drinks of my soda. (Lots of other people do this too,so I dont feel AS weird about this)

*I store trash in my purse. Completely random useless trash,that normal people would throw away gets put in my purse for no particular reason. Its pretty gross,but its a bad habit!

*I hate the way pepsi makes my teeth feel. :O

*I hate hanging up my clothes. I hate doing Laundry PERIOD..and usually wait til I have absolutely nothing else to wear before Ill do my own laundry. Sad. I know.

*I cant sit through a whole movie in one sitting. I have to pause,get up...do something..sit back down again. Ive been told its pretty annoying to say the least. Hehe

*I take pictures of nearly everything. Sometimes theyre just flat out dumb,but every now and then I get a really great photograph.. <33

*Im an obsessive compulsive prayer at night. This one is weird. I have to go through a specific prayer everynight before I go to bed,and If I dont..I just cannot sleep.

*My hand writing changes daily. O.o Without even trying!

*I like cheesey scary movies

*I suck on gummy bears,but hate chewing them.

*I cant stand the feeling of CHALK on my hands.

*I have a thing for billy bob thorton.. Hes SEXY. =P

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